In Which Matthew Bellamy Disagrees with Carl Rogers

“Hoodoo” – Muse

And I’ve had recurring nightmares
That I was loved for who I am
And missed the opportunity
To be a better man

Aspirations

Hannah sits at the piano, quietly … no, never. Not quietly. Not Hannah. Let’s start over.

Hannah sits at the piano, plinkering away to herself. (Just because she’s plinkering to herself doesn’t mean it’s quiet.) Many pages of these three hymnals have been witness to her peering eyes, thumbing … well … thumbs, and that claw-like system that keeps the pages to where she can see them.

She announces to the world (and to her mother in particular) the reason for the awkward harmonies her out-of-use hands have contrived at the expense of the well-worn keys. (It seems to be along the lines of her declaration at a young age: “Mom, I will do gymnastics, and you will clap.” Maybe the following words, like her former proclamation, will be prophetic.)

“When I am 75, I will be that old lady leading a small country church in worship. That’s why I’m playing all these hymns now. I’ll have years of practice.”

Her mother is unfazed and unconvinced. “It’ll have to be a very small church…”

Redefining

“Despair is not just a sin, it is a simple mistake. Despair assumes you know the end of your story, and that end is a bad ending.”

Andrew Peterson
April 26, 2010

You are good – All the time

#18 – Christmas music!

#19 – 55 degree weather on the last day of November.

#20 – An unexpected connection with an admissions counselor from Denver Seminary.

#21 – Blessed restoration in relationships.

#22 – New underwear.

on a completely different note

There is a selection of music I have on my computer that I don’t need to keep anymore, so I’d like to offer it to you! If you email me or leave me a comment to let me know what you’re interested in, I’ll email it to you.

The 88 – Go Go Go
Bat for Lashes – Daniel
Bat for Lashes – What’s a Girl to Do
Broken Social Scene – All to All
Califone – 1928
Carrie Underwood – Before He Cheats
Dead Man’s Bones – My Body’s a Zombie for You
Lily Allen – Smile
Lily Allen – Knock ‘Em Out
Lily Allen – LDN
Madita – Better Brother
Memory Tapes – Bicycle
Monsters of Folk – Dear God (Sincerely M.O.F.)
The National – Bloodbuzz Ohio
Neil Young – Walk With Me
Webbie – Independent
Zac Brown Band – Keep Me In Mind

Note: There is no illegality involved in these transactions. All songs were gotten by me legally, and I will delete the song from my computer once I email it to you.

[love is waiting]

Thank you, Brooke Fraser, for these words:

I could write a million songs about the way you say my name,
I could live a lifetime with you and then do it all again.
And like I can’t force the sun to rise or hasten summer’s start,
Neither should I rush my way into your heart.

on good tunes

This song has been stuck in my head and in my mouth since Thursday, when I heard Sam & Ruby interviewed on NPR. (have I mentioned how much happier NPR makes my life?)

Independently, Sam & Ruby’s voices are breathy, a little quirky, but overall, great. But when they sing together, some nerve is hit inside you, and you feel obligated to dance. break out the ole geetar. sing in the shower endlessly.